regret

this will be the 1st time i felt that i miss him .........
tomorrow, 30 of oct is his [big day] ~~~
since when we didnt talk to each others???
since when i start felt he is just annoying ??
since when he start not to reply my msg ??
since when he didnt knock my msn n shout [sei yeh ~~what are u doing ?!!]
since when i start missing him ??
since when i just realize that i miss the past so much ....

i think the post that i was post last time hurt him lot ......
i think so .......
he never msn me after i post that paragraph on my blog ...
hmmm.....
regret what i did to him
i said sorry in my blog , but i think he didnt realize that
i know i lost him .......
i lost a fren ....
mayb could not consider as a best friend ....
but i do cherish him ........
i know he will not come back to me anymore ........
but how much i wish that one day his name will appear on my monitor
n those word that i am familiar to
how much i wish he will say
[wei .......where is my chocolate ??????where is my birthday present????]
haiz .........
these are just my wish
those dream that will not come true
regret what i did to him .........
haiz ~~~~
i wish to say
[i am sorry] to him .......
but ...........
i felt embarrased to do that
haiz ~~~~~~~
what can i do is
wish him happy birthday at here ........

happy birthday ,mr geh poh ....


ps:miss him


~s3ll~
29 of oct
4.01pm